Its funny to think that you could put your all into something thinking its gonna work out or thinking that its meant for your life only to have it turn its back on you and make you feel as if youre good for absolutely nothing, love has its way of tormenting you until you've learned your lesson and truth is i haven't learned a fucking thing because in the end no matter who much effort was put into things, no matter how much good memories were shared or how much he or she cared it always ends the same way, me fighting and losing, me feeling like im destined to be alone for the rest of my life, its depressing to think of how so many people around me are falling in love each day, most of them can gladly take that risk and not fear getting hurt because they have the power , they have the ability to control how this little fairytale is going to end, but people like me who are slaves to romance will do all it takes even if it means suffering for a bit, but love has always turned its back on me, and this is no ''pity party ''or ''pity story'' to get peopel to feel bad for me its the truth and if i've learned anything throughout this experience so far is that love is a big pain in the ass , especially when you commit yourself to one person for so long only to have them fuck you over and belittle you as a person because you couldn't meet their needs, you couldn't step up to the plate and suck up to them and at the same time forget about yourself just to make them happy, sometimes its not enough, people come and go gor no reason and some do it selfishly, they hit you with that '' i need to think for myself '' bullshit after basically leading you on for such a long period of time,basically lying to you to make you feel good about yourself when all along they didn't feel the same as you, so what no one agrees with me and my weak interpretation of love, i'm growing as a person and im learning more and more about it as i get older, everyone has their opinion on love and what it should be, how it should be and what it really is , but me, i cant stand the thought of it now because i thought i had something good and it perished , now my worlds upside down and i'm in the most confusing stage of my life, angry at the world blaming myself when i shouldn't be,
