being alone can be soothing, relaxing,calming, peaceful or whatever you want it to be , but for m,e its been a miserable process, not because i simply cant handle being alone because i can, its just i hate being alone with my own thoughts, like is this even fair? do i even deserve this? i ask myself the same questions each day, blaming myself for every little thing, every little mistake that went wrong, truth is i miss you and i miss us, but i know your hearts long gone and mine might be getting there too, its just sad to think something i put almost all my faith in could just perish all because of a few minor mistakes that could've been fixed, but i'm not gonna sit here and beg for another chance or prove you wrong ,because deep down i know this was possibly one of the worst ways i've had my heart broken and its easier said than done but i gotta move on with my life too, even if its in the most immature way possible, even if it means i end up chasing after another girl ,even if it means deleting you out of my life, because why? why should i be friends with someone who hurt me so badly and did'nt even realize it? why should i be friends with a person who pretended to know what love really was ? why should i even bother trying to make ends meet and patching this up? maybe because i can t bring myself to find peace with this situation, because i'm still angry, i'm still cursing at the world because i know i didn't deserve this, but to wherever you are or if you even see this, thank you for opening up my eyes to this new world, i just know someday you'll need me and who knows if i'll still be around to catch your tears.
